Last night I had plans to work on my photobook with photos from 2013. I never got around to do much more than open the programme I use to make the book–I got distracted with other things. When I was ready to go to bed, I promised myself to work on it today. Even though I didn’t get anything done with my book last night, it made me think about what I want to do in 2014 photography-wise. Laying in bed, in complete darkness–with only the light from my cellphone, I started to write down things I want to accomplish this year. The list got longer than I thought it would.
A while ago I started to think about things I want to do before I die. I’m not really sure how that thought popped up in my head, but none the less, it did. At first I had a hard time come up with anything at all. After some hard thinking I had like four things I wanted to do. That made me wonder if I’m this bored, none adventurist person who doesn’t want to do / dare to do anything.
I have to admit that I am scared of many things. You will never see me bungyjump or skydive. I’d rather bang my head into a wall repeatedly for ten hours than do any of those things. I am very picky when it comes to food, so whenever I think about places to travel, I never think about places where they have food I’m not found of. I could never go to Thailand, because I think I would find the food challanging to eat. I would also never go to South America for that sake, based on the same reason.
I also have to admit that I might not be the most adventurist person in the world either. I like familiar things.
After some serious thinking that lasted weeks, I have now come up with ten things I really would like to do before I die.
Go to Berlin
I have always wanted to visit Berlin. To me it seems like a very interesting city and I think it would be lots for me to photograph there.When I was on a two week vacation around Europe when I wsa 19, we had to options on the end of our trip; either go to Berlin or Hamburg. After a debate we decided to go to Hamburg, which was closer to home. We were a bit tired of being on the road/vacation and decided to take the shortest road back home. I regret now not going to Berlin. Hamburg was nice, but it’s far from as interesting as I imagine Berling would be.
See Rolling Stones Live
I have seen quite some big artists like Springsteen, U2, R.E.M, Leonard Cohen, Tina Turner and Dire Straights. What’s missing? The oh mighty Rolling Stones. I’m not a massive fan of their music, but they are iconic and I think it would be awesome to see them live onces. Who doesn’t want to see Mick Jaggers big mouth and his extra ordinary dance moves? I think they’ve been in Oslo once before. I never got around to go back then. I didn’t really think about it then. Hopefully they will come to Norway one last time? I sure hope so.
Publish a childrens book
For a long time I’ve been found of writing. When I was 13 I started to write poems. I remember impressing my parents with one poem, and it goes like this: Happiness is life. Life is happyness. What if happyness goes away. Will there be any life left? Mum thought it was beautiful and a real good question. I’ve never been a very good writer, but I’ve always had a great fantasy. When I was like 16/17 I started on two childrens books. Well one for children and one for teens. The book for children was about a old, lonely lady with a cat. I don’t remember much from it. The book for the teens, was about a boy with a Norwegian mother and a father from Ghana. He was bullied in school and nobody saw it / did anything about it. The kid kept it to himself, like many people do, and he ended up commiting suicide. What a dramatic story. I wrote over 40 pages on that story, it got named ‘Different’ and never got finished.
Writing a childrens book would be awesome. I would have to hire someone to draw pictures, because I want pictures in the book to go along. I know a graphic designer who illustrate books and write comics among other things. She’s really good and I wouldn’t mind have here illustrate my story. So far I haven’t gotten a great idea for a book, but maybe it will come one day. If it does, I’m sure gonna be ready with a pen and paper (errr, maybe a laptop?)
Visit Asbury Park and the Stone Pony, Atlantic City and Freehold
No many may not know where these places are located. They are all located in New Jersey, USA. So why do I want to go there? It’s as cheese as it gets. Freehold is where Springsteen grew up. Asbury Park is where he started to play concerts and Stone Pony is a bar where he’s played a lot. Lots of young musicians have started their careere there. Atlantic City is a place Springsteen sings about. He even as a song called exactly that, Atlantic City.
It would be fun to see all the places he has been and where he grew up. It would mean the world to me. I would bring my best friend Linda and my camera. Every single thing that Springsteen sings about / is influenced by would be documented with my camera.
Long time ago, it must be 15 years ago, a friend of mine and me, we planned a trip to Ireland. Well, first we thought about train travelling in England and Ireland. Then we dropped that idea and thought about renting a card. The first we did was buying a book over Ireland and find out places we wanted to visit. After that we tried to find out how much it would cost for us to rent a car. Sadly it costed so much, since we were so young and needed insurance etc, that we figured out we couldn’t afford it. You know, we were still studying at the time.
So the trip never happened. I still have the book over Ireland and I still remember one of the places we wanted to visit. Carrick-a-Rede Rope Brigde is located up north in Northern Ireland. It spans 20 meters and are 30 meters above the rocks underneeth it. It connects the mainland and the tiny island of Carrickarede. I am pretty sure it’s a spectacular bridge and a place it would be fun to bring my camera.
Learn a new language
For a very long time I’ve wanted to learn a new language. Now I speak Norwegian and English. I also understand Swedish, but doesn’t speak it that well. It very similar to Norwegian, so it’s easy to understand it. I also can understand quite some Danish, but it sort of depends of where in Denmark they come from and how fast they speak. It’s way easier to read Danish than to listen to it.
I’m not quite sure why, but since I’v wanted to learn a new language, I’ve wanted to learn something not that many speaks. I would rather learn Russian than Spanish. I think I rather would learn a ‘odd’ language than a very common one, just because it would sound cooler to say I know Russian than Spanish.
I have some Dutch friends and for a long time I’ve thought about learning Dutch. I’ve never done anything about it though, just been thinking. I’ve searched for online courses, but I haven’t been able to find any. Most courses is in English, Spanish, French or Italian. I wouldn’t be able to practise my Spanish, French or Italian, so it would be a waste of time learning any of those. With no practise, I’m pretty sure I would forgot everything I would learn pretty quickly. That is how it went with my German. I had german in Junior High and High School. I wasn’t very good, but I learned the basics. After High School I never used it, so now most of my knowledge is gone. I do understand some, but it’s def. not enough to carry a conversation. I can say hi, how are you and goodbuy, but you don’t get far with that. (Hallo, wie gehts? Aus Wiedersehen.)
If I’m ever gonna learn a new language I think it has to be Dutch. Knowing how to speak Dutch would be cool to have on my resume.
Go to England and see Tottenham Hotspur play at White Heart Lane
I love football. The passion for football comes from my dad. He has been breathing football all his life, first as a goal keeper then a coach (for a whole team and just for goal keepers). Not only did I inherit my love for football from dad, I even ended up with the same fave English football team – Tottenham Hotspur. Back in the days, Tottenham had a Norwegian goal keeper. Since dad liked that team and they had a Norwegian goal keeper, I fell in love with that team myself.
I’ve been in England (London) twice, but I’ve never seen a football match there. The last time I visited London was in 1998 I think. Back then I bought a Tottenham scarf. I used that a lot. Now it’s been a long time since I’ve worn it.
I would love to go to London and see Tottenham play at their homeground, White Heart Lane. I don’t have many friends that are fan of football, so if I ever go, I will bring dad. He is the reason I love football and Tottenham, so it
Buy a telescope and look at stars/moon
Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been fascinated by the stars. When I was a kid, I remember leaning my head back and staring at the stares for a long time. I think it would be very interesting to have a telescope and be able to look at the stars/moon.
Climb Galdhøpiggen again
Galdhøpiggen is Norways highest mountain, 2469 meter over the ocean. I have climbed that mountain once. My first attempt was when I was 14. It was less than a year after my heavy back surgery and my body wasn’t strong enough to go all the way up. I only made it half way, then I had to go back. The next year I tried again. This time I made it all the way up. It was exhausting, but I did it.
I want to to climb that mountain again. This time I want to bring my camera and take some spectacular photos, if the weather is good that is. A colleague of mine climbed Galdhøpiggen last year and it was all foggy when they came to the top. Not much to see then.
One thing is clear, I need to be more fit before I climb that mountain again. If I tried it tomorrow, I wouldn’t get far. I would be exhaused after a short while. My shape isn’t the best, sadly. So first thing would to get in shape, the next thing would be to climb that beautiful mountain!
Ride the London Eye
I have difficulties with hights. I don’t have any problems with flying or being on a balcony on the 10th floor, but being high up where I don’t feel completely safe / comfortable, is not my thing. Riding carousels that are high up or being in a ferris wheel, is not something my body likes.
Despite all this, I really want to ride the London Eye. It’s 120 meters hight. The view from the top would be awesome.
So what is on your bucket list? Tell me, I would love to know!
To photograph is to hold one’s breath, when all faculties converge to capture fleeting reality. It’s at that precise moment that mastering an image becomes a great physical and intellectual joy.
Henri Cartier-Bresson, The Minds Eye
I found this quote and I wanted to share it. It is beautiful said and very accurate – just how I feel about photography. There is not much more to say really, becauce that quote says it all.
A new year has arrived. I thought it was time to blog again. It has been a while since last time, sadly. I don’t blog nearly as often as I want to. There is many reasons for that. Lately I’ve been quite pre-occupied with other things. There was Christmas and Christmas always brings a lot of preparations to do. A week before Christmas I still had Christmas cards left to make and I hand’t started on the gift tags I had planned to make. There were gifts to buy and gifts to wrap. There were also a social happenings; the offices Christmas party and a friends birthday party. I entered the new year being sick; had a severe cold. So there hasn’t been much time for blogging and being creative.
A new year always makes me… I don’t really know how to explain. I am full of ideas and got a big urge to be super creative; I want to do all sorts of stuff and blog about it. There is nothing like being creative. It makes me happy. It keeps me alive.
I’ve been thinking about what I want to do this year.
- I want to start on a new project. I am not thinking of a big project like a 365-challange (366 this year, since it’s 366 days in 2012), but a smaller one. It would rather be a 30 days of… or something like that. I’ve done a food themed project and that was fun. My 90 days of summer project was also fun. I need to ponder a bit more on what my new project’s theme will be.
- Start up my door project again. I think I’ve talked a bit this before. I want to continue shooting doors. My plan is to make a book out of it called ‘doors of Oslo’. Oslo is not as great as Ireland/Dublin regarding doors, but there sure is some great doors in Oslo as well. All might not be as colorful as the doors in Ireland, but I’m sure I will find more great doors.
- Take more black and white photos. I want to take monochrome photos on a more regular basis.
- I want to finish my 2010 in photos book. I’ve started it and has choosen almost all the photos I want in it. I miss some fall photos, but they are not on my computer, but on my dads actually.
- Create a book about doors of Oslo. I still need to shoot some more doors. I don’t have nearly enough. I want more special doors.
- Start making Christmas cards early. I already have an order on 10 Christmas cards. And I know mum needs 20 this year too. My plan is to make some cards every month. Then it won’t be so much to do in November and December. It will prevent me from being tired of making the cards either.
- Make more cards. And send more cards. I know I love getting cards in the mail. I also love giving. So I’m going to send more cards; not only for Christmas and birthdays, but also surprise cards like ‘happy holidays’, ‘happy Easter’ or just a ‘happy friday’.
I also wish to blog more regularly. Where have I heard that before? I’ve said it more than once before. I’ve proved to myself and this blog that blogging regularly is not easy. So I shouldn’t talk too loud about that. Many times before have I thought that ‘now I’m going to blog more often, at least twice a week, if not more often’. It has last only a few weeks and then I’ve fallen back into old habbits.
This reminds me of what I was thinking about when I wanted to write about the start of 2012. I wanted to write about not making any New Years resolutions. I always fail keeping them, so I think it’s best not to have any. I know that’s a bit defensive and that a very enthusiastic, optimistic, motivator / coach would say that if I’m thinking negativly like that, I surely won’t acomplish anything at all. I agree, but when history has repeated itself over and over, it’s hard to have high hopes.
Reading what I’ve written so far, makes me see I have hopes for the new year. I don’t want to call it New Years Resolutions, because it sounds so formal. I’m just gonna keep this as my wishes for the new, creative, year. This blog will tell me if my wish comes true or not.
I live so north that during the winter months I have to deal with little light/sunlight. As you can see from this link, in Oslo in December the sun is up around 09.00 and gone around 15.00 in the afternoon. It’s dark when I get up early in the morning (06.20 ish) and it’s dark when I leave the office at 16.00. The whole afternoon is dark and that is quite depressing.
Living so far north has an effect on my photography. I photograph way less in the winter months than I do during the summer. During the weekdays, the only possible hour to photograph anything with a decent amount of natural light / sunlight is when I’m at work. That is not ideal for a person who loves to photograph all the time.
Weekends is the only time I have a chance to photograph anything at all these days. And it’s not always I get a chance to photograph anything then either. Busy weekends or bad weather prevents me from picking up my camera and go out photographing.
I haven’t picked up my camera since the 27th of November. It’s almost two weeks. That might not sound long to someone using their camera once in a while, but for me it’s a long time; a very long time! I feel something is missing. The possibility to bring my camera when I go to work and pop it out of my purse on my way home, is something I miss a lot. During the spring/summer/autumn, I carry my camera where ever I go. Now I don’t even bother bringing it, because I know it’s not possible to photograph when it’s close to pitch black outside.
Not being able to photograph as much as I want to, has resulted in lots of unused creativity. All the creativity I used to let out while photographing is bottling up inside me and I don’t know what to do with it. It’s like I want to do something, but when I sit down and try to find something to do, I can’t think of anything. I have spent quite some time making cards, most of all Christmas cards. I’ve also spent a little time sowing a few new pillow cases. I would love to sow more, but I don’t have anything to sow. I def don’t need any more pillow cases and I can’t think of anythign else to sow; at least not anything I would managed to deal with. When it comes to making cards, I’ve mad so many Christmas cards that I’m a bit fed up making them to be honest. I’m happy I only have a few more to make. I am making some birthday card as a Christmas gift to someone. Yesterday my friend Linda said she would love to get some birthday cards as a birthday gift in March. But I think after I’ve made the cards for Christmast, I need a little break. Making cards is not like photographing, where I can go on and on and on and on without getting tired.
Not being able to photograph as much as I want, has affected this blog as well. I have an urge to blog more, but I don’t have much to blog about. This blog is a creative blog and I want to share my creativity. I want to share the photos I take and write stories that goes with the photos. It’s not that I did that very frequently earlier this year, it’s just that I really want to do it now, but don’t have the chance.
All in all I have two problems. I can’t use my creativity nearly as much as I want to and it’s so dark outside, I only have limited time photographing. These two things are closely related. If I only could photograph whenever I wanted without having to do it when it’s dark outside, then I would’ve solved the photography problem and the creativity problem. That is not going to happen, so I have to find other things to use my creativity on.
The big question is what?
If I find the answer to that question, I will let you know. But don’t hold your breath.