I live so north that during the winter months I have to deal with little light/sunlight. As you can see from this link, in Oslo in December the sun is up around 09.00 and gone around 15.00 in the afternoon. It’s dark when I get up early in the morning (06.20 ish) and it’s dark when I leave the office at 16.00. The whole afternoon is dark and that is quite depressing.
Living so far north has an effect on my photography. I photograph way less in the winter months than I do during the summer. During the weekdays, the only possible hour to photograph anything with a decent amount of natural light / sunlight is when I’m at work. That is not ideal for a person who loves to photograph all the time.
Weekends is the only time I have a chance to photograph anything at all these days. And it’s not always I get a chance to photograph anything then either. Busy weekends or bad weather prevents me from picking up my camera and go out photographing.
I haven’t picked up my camera since the 27th of November. It’s almost two weeks. That might not sound long to someone using their camera once in a while, but for me it’s a long time; a very long time! I feel something is missing. The possibility to bring my camera when I go to work and pop it out of my purse on my way home, is something I miss a lot. During the spring/summer/autumn, I carry my camera where ever I go. Now I don’t even bother bringing it, because I know it’s not possible to photograph when it’s close to pitch black outside.
Not being able to photograph as much as I want to, has resulted in lots of unused creativity. All the creativity I used to let out while photographing is bottling up inside me and I don’t know what to do with it. It’s like I want to do something, but when I sit down and try to find something to do, I can’t think of anything. I have spent quite some time making cards, most of all Christmas cards. I’ve also spent a little time sowing a few new pillow cases. I would love to sow more, but I don’t have anything to sow. I def don’t need any more pillow cases and I can’t think of anythign else to sow; at least not anything I would managed to deal with. When it comes to making cards, I’ve mad so many Christmas cards that I’m a bit fed up making them to be honest. I’m happy I only have a few more to make. I am making some birthday card as a Christmas gift to someone. Yesterday my friend Linda said she would love to get some birthday cards as a birthday gift in March. But I think after I’ve made the cards for Christmast, I need a little break. Making cards is not like photographing, where I can go on and on and on and on without getting tired.
Not being able to photograph as much as I want, has affected this blog as well. I have an urge to blog more, but I don’t have much to blog about. This blog is a creative blog and I want to share my creativity. I want to share the photos I take and write stories that goes with the photos. It’s not that I did that very frequently earlier this year, it’s just that I really want to do it now, but don’t have the chance.
All in all I have two problems. I can’t use my creativity nearly as much as I want to and it’s so dark outside, I only have limited time photographing. These two things are closely related. If I only could photograph whenever I wanted without having to do it when it’s dark outside, then I would’ve solved the photography problem and the creativity problem. That is not going to happen, so I have to find other things to use my creativity on.
The big question is what?
If I find the answer to that question, I will let you know. But don’t hold your breath.