It’s less than two weeks since I came with a door-project update. It all looked so promising. I was motivated and hadn’t planned to stop yet. Now things are different….
I have to admit I’m a bit fed up with this project. It takes time and energy. And it made me not take pictures of other things. All my concentration has been aimed at the doors. It has been my first priority. My second too it seems. Since I’ve started and up to now, I’ve taken less and less other photos. I don’t like that. I miss taking other shots.
One of the reasons for this is that only use my 18-125 mm lense when I shoot doors. I need the wide angle lense. The 50 mm lense won’t be practical to use. So when I always have the wide angle lense with me I can’t take those natur close ups I did with the 50 mm lense. It’s too much to bring both every day.
I feel like the air is going out of the balloon – little by little. If I don’t repair the balloon, it will be flat very soon. The thing is, I don’t know how to repair it. And frankly, I don’t know if I really want to repair it.
How do I make this a fun project again? I have no idea. Searching for doors in the dark while it’s either snowing or raining isn’t very fun.
Parting with this project; deep down I don’t want to do it either. I want to continue to find new doors. I want to have 365 doors. It will be strange to quit. Something that’s been a part of me for soon 6 months… it will be weird to not have that to concentrate on.
But on the other hand, it will be good to be able to breath again. It will be good to not have my hands tied up to my camera and the doors each day.
No matter what I decide to do, I’m not gonna quit yet. I still need my 183 doors. It’s 9 doors left. I am going to make that, no matter how much the air is out of me.
And I also would like to reach 200 door. Looks better than 183…
Maybe, maybe not.